MY JOURNEY TO SELF HEALING
This article took me forever to jolt because I went on a self-searching journey to find out how I got to the place Iam, which I must say is the best place I have been in so long.
How did I get here?
1. I made a deliberate choice.
I practically made a choice one morning in June after my last surgery (see article on why I have been MIA) that I wanted to get both physically and mentally whole as I was in very dark space.
I was tired of being angry, bitter, sad with myself and God.
I wanted my life back, I wanted my joy, my sanity and peace back so badly that I realized that the power to get to this place was with me and nobody else.
The power to disallow myself to wallow in pity and throw pity parties with everyone who tried to reach out to me was with me.
The power to disallow those bad emotions to drain me and have the better part of me was also with me.
I wanted the new but I had to make a choice to let go of the old.
2. I used my tongue to get my life back
The power of life and death is the mouth and the battle field is the mind.
Trust me when I tell you that you can invent and create the life you want by changing your thoughts and speaking life(positivity) to your situation.
That’s what I DID!
Every time the self doubt thoughts came crippling in trying to tell me that God was done with me, that I don’t deserve happiness, am a failure etc I would counter attack it with positivity and the word of God.
I could only do this because I knew what God was saying about me.
I did this by reading his word and staying equipped, so that when those thoughts bombarded me I had a weapon of attack (a scripture from Gods word)
Trust me, it got me out of depression because with time I started believing that God wanted the best for me and it translated into my life…
Whatever I was speaking, little did I know I was creating.
Am a testament that everything I created with my mouth am now enjoying.
3.Got Rid of Toxicity
I had to get rid of any negative energy around me.
That meant getting rid of those people who would call me only when they have a bad report, people who discourage me, toxic people basically.
Have you ever met someone for the first time and their energy was so uplifting that by the time you part ways you feel so fulfilled?
Those are the people I started welcoming into my circle and still do to date.
I had to end so many relationships with people and learn that it is sometimes the best kind of love to offer toxic people is i.e. “loving them from a distance”
This has ended up clearing my mind, I feel refreshed and I feel as if a new person in me has been birthed.
Am excited to unravel what God has in store for me (Jer 29:11)
My story isn’t over, God is still writing it, and I promise as I end this series on why I have been MIA, it doesn’t mean that I won’t let you in on the surprises God has in store for me.
Thank-you for the love and encouragement and for even trusting me with your stories on the DM’s, WHATSAPP messages and the comment section below my articles.
You guys have literally inspired me and you have become my strength.
Am so glad I got to share about a very vulnerable time in my life with y’all because from what you guys have shared with me, I believe I have also inspired and been an encouragement to you.
Don’t give up no matter what your situation is, if I am now ok, you will be just good, I promise you.
Gods not done with you, that’s why you still have breathe in your lungs.
You are his masterpiece-he has you at the palm of his hands and at the centre of his will.
Love you always,
N.B. I am currently working on platform where women can bond over speaking about their infertility issues such as fibroids and find help for their specific needs.
Look out for this soon.
Don’t forget to let me in on yourself healing journey or any questions you may have on the comment section below.
Tabitha draws her inspiration and motivation from helping people from all walks of life and different variations to look their best. She believes that people should only see your style but focus on you.