Money, success? What do you rate as being successful?
Driving the latest Mercedes, having a good job with a six figure salary, being married with kids sounds like the ideal scenario to relate to when it comes to success.
14 years ago on May 16th 2003 the man who I believed loved me the most, who I learnt what unconditional love was about, left the world.
He taught me what unconditional love was about! Dance with the angel’s papa till we meet again!
When I love, I do hard because I know what it feels like not to be.
Sometimes it’s mistaken for being weird, I mean who loves hard in this day and age? Yet when I get my broken, God is a teaching me to love people hard back to himself.
I find my power right there, not the ideology, “If you do me wrong I cut you off!”
What impact are you making in cutting someone off? What difference is there between you and the person you have wronged? People who hurt others are hurting themselves. Therefore love them out of their pain!
I WILL HAVE MADE IT IN THIS WORLD WHEN I AM IDENTIFIED AS A CHILD OF GOD, SOMEONE WHO BROUGHT PEOPLE CLOSER TO GOD AND BACK TO GOD, NOT BY A TITLE OR NAME.
NOW THAT IS WHAT SUCCESS LOOKS LIKE TO ME.
AM A WORK IN PROGRESS, CLAY IN MY MASTERS HANDS DAILY BEING MOULDED INTO HIS LIKENESS!
After my daddy left, I embarked on my own personal journey to search for true love, someone/people who would love me like the way papa did. Ever since I have had my antennas all up ready to attack whenever someone “came” for me.
The aftermath, I would fight anything and anyone who tried my patience. I had zero chills. I didn’t trust no one and nothing! I would keep to myself.
I have been hurt, dragged through the mud, despised and mocked for what I believed in and what I was about.
Even previously after finding God along the way I still tried to put him second, only talking to him when my life was troubled.
Until the 10th of January 2017, after an incidence that I ran to my room, broke into tears on my knees and cried saying:
“Daddy, am hardened by the world, I want you to soften me by your word. I don’t want to talk to you only through the storms but then every minute of my life.”
I heard God say,” the search is over! Let me introduce myself to you all over again, and if you promise to walk in my ways and have a personal relationship with me, I will tell you why I created you.”
Its darkest just before dawn!
The other day I was conversing with my husband about human love. And we found out that human love is:
Characteristics of human love.
I wondered, who are my friends and who do I talk to when am down? And why do most people in my life want to be there through the good times and won’t stick around through the hard times.
How fake are people nowadays?
What gives me the ultimate satisfaction my soul is longing for?
And it all became clear, God does!
GOD MY LIFELINE
Guys seriously, God is my lifeline, I can’t wait to get home to speak to him, to be cuddled by his presence and to let him know how my day was. I look forward to his discipline when he tells me no that’s not right and when he says you have done well! I can’t live without him. I ask him how to hold my hair every morning, what outfit to where, how to cook amazing breakfast meals for my husband and to even submit to his authority. I speak to God every moment about anything and everything.
I didn’t notice how much I have fallen in love with him until I realized I haven’t told a soul about my problems for 2 months, all I do is pray and he answers.
I pray with my husband every day and we command our morning! Taking our blessings and discerning from our maker what he wants us to do, how we can live for him! Everything we need he has provided. He has been faithful!
He has loved me so much, that all I illuminate his love, every time am hurt by someone all I see is an opportunity to love someone to God and to forgive them like Christ did me.
I whisper words about him aimlessly to myself because I just love him.
He is my longing, like a deer pants for the waters so my soul yearns for him. Psalms 42:1
Now that I have told you about what satisfies my soul’s longing, how about you try him, ask him to reveal himself to you all over again, like he did me.
YOU CAN HAVE ALL THIS WORLD BUT GIVE ME JESUS!
Thanks for stopping by, I pray that this article will help you find God! Feel free to share your journey to finding God with me.
I love you all so much!
Tabitha draws her inspiration and motivation from helping people from all walks of life and different variations to look their best. She believes that people should only see your style but focus on you.